yesterday i —>
tinkered around doing nothing
played games on the computer
watched tv
watched oz with sarah
played with the dogs
melted from the heat
ordered pizza
ate pizza
went to bed
Tag Archive: dieter
i plan to…
take a shower
get dressed
sort laundry
wash laundry
fold and put away laundry
scan collages
post collages
figure out shipping for nintendo
send buyer a paypal invoice
play frisbee with dieter
paint with gunther
go to the market
yesterday —>
recuperated after the yard sale
played frisbee with dieter
plucked hair tufts from spreckles
did laundry
folded laundry
put away laundry
sat outside and enjoyed the breeze
got cheese tamale combo from muchas gracias
fell asleep
woke up
watched saturday night live
sad —>
1 a : affected with or expressive of grief or unhappiness : downcast b (1) : causing or associated with grief or unhappiness : depressing <sad news> (2) : regrettable,deplorable <a sad relaxation of morals — C. W. Cunnington> c : of little worth
2 : of a dull somber color
issues that were sad for me in the past —>
death of pets
dad slaughtering turkey and rooster
not being believed
not being listened to
parents taking church’s side
parents thought that perhaps i was occupied by a demonic spirit
knowing that if i had been under 18…my parents would have sent me to “christian girl’s prison”
knowing that my dad didn’t want me for a daughter
knowing that they would always choose melissa over me
issues that are sad for me in the present —>
loss of sam
knowing that i wasted so much time…and not just my own
thinking about dieter and gunther getting older
knowing that i will never be …what i used to be…in the eyes of another
goals for dealing with being sad in the future —>
it is okay to feel sad…i just won’t let it consume me…and i will not wallow in it
laundry
trash
brush dogs
play with dogs
gunther painting
collage
scanning
photos
posting
my sammy…
he was a “one of a kind”…unique individual. both silly and strange…kind and loving…he was my protector and constant car companion.
sammy found me in the summer of 1998, at a church camp, in la grande, oregon.
when i first caught a glimpse of him…he was just a filthy, dirty dog. long black hair, turned grey in color from rolling in the dirt and cow pies. his coat was matted with burrs and stickers. he smelled atrocious.
i watched him from a distance. he was just so happy and silly and weird. he would run up to cows…showing them where to go. prancing around and around…showing off his smile of crooked teeth and extreme underbite.
i watched him chase, catch, and eat grasshoppers. when he was thristy…he would gallop into the stream that ran through the property…wade around and drink.
one night…my nephew and i were tucked into our sleeping bags inside of the teepee that we were staying in. we were “sawing logs”…totally and completely asleep. all of the sudden, i felt something…something stinky and hairy…trying to force it’s way into my sleeping bag. i shrieked. paul turned on his flashlight…and there he was…my silly sammy.
i asked around, trying to locate an owner. everyone told me the same story…that he had been dumped out in the “sticks”, by his owner. i was in love. i took my new…filthy, dirty dog…home with me. he met…and quickly bonded with my puppy dieter (a german shepherd/great dane mix)…they were the same age. they were buddies…they did everything together.
sammy was just such a big personality. his smile used to make me feel all warm and fuzzy, and his espresso bean eyes…saw through to my soul. he went everywhere with me…my constant car companion. one night, while delivering newspapers for grocery stores and mini-marts…i was approached from behind…without me knowing or hearing, by two men. all i ever heard was sammy’s deep growl and someone shouting…”run”. my sammy protected me.
my sammy always loved me. there was never a time when he wasn’t happy to see me, or just be by my side. sammy liked to snuggle…and cuddle…and wrestle. he was light on his feet…and fast, fast, fast! he was a crazy looking dog…part border collie, part samoyed, part chow. in the summer, i would shave him…and he looked just like a “mythical” beast. in the summer’s…he became my “chupacabra”.
last october, 2009, i was visiting my family in montana. i got very sick and was in the hospital for about a week. my trip home was postponed. during that extra time in montana…i lost my sammy…he got away from me. sarah called me one morning and let me know. i was devastated. apparently, he had gotten bloat. sarah took him to the emergency vet. they did surgery to fix the problem. he came through the surgery okay, but his heart stopped while he was in recovery. he was gone. and…i never got to say goodbye…or thank him…or let him know how much i loved him.
ah…la jolla…
my dream home is located in la jolla, california…right on the beach at la jolla shores. it is a very big house, maybe 4000 square feet…it is multi-level, with a wall of windows facing the beach and ocean. the house itself is in the style of the hampton’s/cape cod cottage…weathered brown shingles. there is a huge wrap a round deck for observation, grillin’, and chillin’. outside, the property is tiered with different types of vegetation on each level. the top tier has a vegetable and herb garden, the next tier has tropical vegetation like: banana trees, bird of paradise, bamboo, and pampas grass. the next tier has a succulent garden and many different types of palm trees. finally…the last tier closest to the beach is the sprawling, perfect, green lawn…perfect for playing frisbee with dieter.
my other dream home is a spanish style bungalow, located in hillcrest (san diego), california. this home has a basement darkroom, a beautiful spanish styled tile pool, and courtyard with fountain and surrounding tropical and succulent plants. this home is open and airy…close to where the “action” is at…but…still tucked away and private. the roof is made from terracotta tiles…there are wrought iron accents everywhere. mexican tiles in cobalt and white…are the “stars” of this show.
yesterday’s gone, yesterday’s gone…don’t stop thinking about tomorrow…
yesterday i was completely exhausted. i woke up at about 5 am…ate, showered…computered. went with sarah and pam to look at house. went with sarah to pick up gunther’s pills…then to mcdonald’s. got dropped off for therapy. went to pam’s house for sarah to take care of the dogs. ran into safeway to get a few groceries…looked all over for bagelfulls…asked two people…no luck! went home…played frisbee with dieter. gunther peed in the car…and then proceeded to pee several more times in the yard before coming in. had a ham and cheddar sandwich for dinner. watched tv…fell asleep…woke up and put cpap on…woke up this moring at 3:30 am…now it is today.
plans —>
eat breakfast
shower
play frisbee with dieter
go to see house with sarah and her mom
go to therapy
go to see scott
go through ebay box
photograph collages
make an etsy account
post collages
make more collages
i plan to —>
do laundry
help sarah go through stuff on porch for garage sale
help sarah go through the ebay box for the garage sale
post for sale items on craigslist
post garage sale ad on craigslist
drop off and pick-up gunther’s prescription
go grocery shopping
play frisbee with dieter
get more price stickers at big lots
work on collages
supervise gunther painting
