i am very much like the transmission of a manual drive car. when i wake up in the morning…trying to open my eyes…i am in first gear. when i walk to the bathroom…and look at my reflection in the mirror…i am in second gear…still moving slowly…but, faster than before. when i am eating my breakfast…refueling my energy…i am in third gear. when i am driving in the car…singing along to the music on the radio…i am moving right along…and i am in fourth gear.
three gears remain: neutral, reverse, and fifth gear
neutral is complete ambivalence. neutral has no opinion. neutral agrees with anything, just to be left alone.
reverse is no steps forward, and fifteen steps back. reverse is a martyr and victim. reverse is self-defeating.
fifth gear —>
fifth gear is shocking…there is no way to know what you’re going to get when fifth gear shows up. fifth gear is a completely different entity. fifth gear is confident, charismatic, and charming. fifth gear can do anything…and be anyone. fifth gear is the colleague that will take your job. fifth gear never shows up…until…the transmission has been pushed to it’s maximum…it’s that one last, tiny, seemingly meaningless push…that releases the monster. fifth gear will not back down from a fight. fifth gear will get in your face. fifth gear is very angry.